"Should I Drown or Crown You"

Should I drown you in silence or crown you in song?

Why do I still not know, after all that's gone wrong?

As the days drift slowly past,

Only your memories seem to last.

These places whisper, they haunt my mind,

The people stare, their looks unkind.

I’m scared to walk where we once stood,

To face the love I meant for good.

I dreamt we’d age, hand in hand,

You as the queen, I as your man.

But time, it never claimed its toll—

For me, you still complete the whole.

The present begs for something new,

But my heart still beats for you.

Each fragment of our history,

So full of joy and mystery.

I want to keep it all, intact,

Hidden deep, with every pact.

This poem—just for you to see.

Unless you’d rather set it free.

Then never tell me what took place—

Let me remember your honest face.

The thought of losing you for good

Tears my soul more than it should.

Could we rewind, correct the wrongs,

Undo the silence, rewrite our songs?

That bliss is gone, it slipped away—

No more waking by you each day.

A moment I would always cherish,

Now just memories that slowly perish.

It could have been a life so bright,

You and me, both crowned in light.

If only silence weren’t mistaken

For love neglected and forsaken.

I’ve loved no one else, nor will I start,

You were, and are, the beat of my heart.

You’re my Ellie, I your Fredricksen,

A truth I never voiced to anyone.

We’d build a home, brick by brick,

Love would rise, strong and thick.

But now you’re gone, and life’s a fray,

A battlefield I face each day.

I breathe, I move, I wear my skin—

But thriving, love, is not within.

So farewell now, my wind, my sail—

I turn alone to face the gale.

Was any of it Real?

I want to run—so fast, so far,

Escape your name, your ghost, your scar.

Each step I take, my heart still wrenches,

Your memory digs in deep, leaves trenches.

If I stop, the past begins to bite,

Like a starving hound in the dead of night.

The moments we shared come rushing back,

A cruel montage on a looping track.

Was it all real, the love we made?

Or just a mask that you portrayed?

Did you ever mean the words you said,

Or was I just warmth till the next warm bed?

I've lost the gift of peaceful sleep,

My nights are long, my wounds run deep.

Even insomniacs would bow in shame,

Compared to how I’ve played this game.

Vivid reels inside my mind—

Moments soft, now sharp, unkind.

I try new things, they never last,

Joy fades quickly, haunted by past.

A bottomless spiral, I descend,

Each thought of you refuses to end.

Why did you go? Was I not enough?

Was my version of love too soft, too tough?

Now work’s my drug, my sweet escape,

I bury myself, reshape, reshape.

No time to talk, no space to feel,

Just tasks and noise to help me heal.

But still the question screams and burns,

Why didn’t you share the hurt in turns?

This dream we built comes back in pain,

Now I'm the one left in the rain.

I’ve even thought of ending this ride,

But that would just let sorrow slide

Into more hearts, make them bleed too—

So no, I won’t do that to those who do love true.

You could’ve told me, face to face,

Not hid behind a liar’s grace.

You fooled around, then played it calm,

Till I uncovered your secret balm.

Had I not asked you that cold dawn,

You’d have let the lie go on and on.

So tell me now—are you happy still?

Was breaking me part of the thrill?

I hope you smile when night is near,

When I lie cold with dried-up tears.

Because this wound, this step you chose—

Left nothing blooming, just a roseless rose.

Love's Labour Lost

How should I convey the tempest in my heart?

My heart churns with vivacity, no way to depart

A thought drifts through my mind day and night

Which I cannot elaborate to any other Dwight

Whom shall I vocal myself to, or shall speak with

Shouldn’t it be lot easier to run over a scythe

That night I'll never forget when you uttered the name

I woke up livid and thought whom should I blame

I confronted you vigorously wanting to know the truth myself

You fought back physically, I ended up hurting myself

From that night onwards never have I ever had peace

The relentless thought of what it is does not cease

You told me that your love for me has crumbled

Telling me the reason why you had faltered and stumbled

I saw it in your eyes, the beautiful precious lips

My love for you that still has you in grips

You made me realise all my mistakes and my shortcomings

All that which kept you at bay and other things

A fool I had been to maintain the distance well

And trying not to keep you abreast in the swell

I look back at myself committing the crime so horrific

Oh, the fresh musty memories so vivid, grim and terrific

What could I do to get my old platypus back

I am ready to inscribe my confessions on a plaque

Would you not my love you give me another chance

To relive the moment which we had at first glance

My heart, my love is dry and wrenching in turmoil

Turn over a new leaf, a beginning without a spoil

All I say to you is that I am repentant

My penchant for our love to be like the crescent

Speed of Time

Oh girl what are you sad for,

O son who are you earning for.

what are you so busy for,

as if together in a shoal.

The life and riches you run after.

doesn't remain with you thereafter.

as a flower blossoms to wither,

so does your riches, pile and plunder.

Time has its own pace,

the harder you try to embrace

like the sand in a fist

it flies away from yout wrist.

It's hard to see you cry

beleive me I with you cry

but nevertheless I'm shy

to see all my labour die

Sad Eyes

My eyes are wet with dew,

you didn't even know it was for you.

My dreams are not sublime anymore,

close to reality and even far more.

I remember that moment,

when you recited the sonnet.

Told about your love for me,

and everyone else in the vicinity .

In the depth of that water,

I heard my dreams shatter.

I went ahead to embrace you,

to tell you I was happy for you.

We walked home that night,

trailing under the moon's bright.

Holding hands now and then,

as if nothing ever happened.

Bidding you farewell I said good-bye,

and closed the door with a big sigh.

Sitting on the stairs for a while,

wondered if I would ever smile.

I ran to the window to catch a glimpse,

to yell and say, come back please.

You had gone quite far by then,

with an intention to return again.

I wished with all my heart for you,

for all the things you have to do.

But I can't mask it anymore,

the emotions you could not know

All about Rain!!!

You come with thunder

And make us wonder

Up above your color is black

When it rains your color u lack

You fall on earth and make it fruitful

You make it green, you make it beautiful

You are like a mother to the farmers

A listener to their prayers

Sometimes you become devastating

And disrupt everything

You are caring and you are loving

You help the people in moving

You create lake and you create pond

With me you share a special bond

You cause flood, you cause wave

Sometimes you become naughty and naive

Lavender

In the garden of serene surrounding

lived my lovely little lavender

Love sprouted with her blooming

and so I did her much flatter

It was known to none

that she had no fruit borne

Her blessed flower was the one

she makes me dance to her tune

I built all my dreams for her

I built all my dreams with her

She tossed her head when the wind patted her

she bowed with grace when the wind patted her

The naughty wind attracted the wild

to be the ones to play with

Along came the friends to the field

Leave her alone, I said, she is a myth

All the love and all the care is for you, my love

She nodded for the last time to say yes

Little did I know that my love will shatter

little did I know that my love will scatter

No one knows about my love

no one knows her price

But deep in my heart I know that

my love is priceless my love is alive.